random thoughts~

Hi! hello everybody~ i was looking out of my window into the the big empty field under the nightsky, had a drink, listening to andy lau's songs. chilling and suddenly got this urge to blog~ lol ! really really a lot of things to write down~ as my title suggests, "random thoughts", so its not really going to be in very nice orderly order~ bear with it bah~ going to be quite wordy ! dun fall asleep !

First thing first~ had a very bad wasted trip to NUH~ my worst nightmare came true~ i wanted to go down to collect my medical report so i can up my PES in order to be enlisted into the police force~ my worst nightmare-cannot collect, need to pay $ therefore wasted trip~ i was punk-ed big time~ cab down there spending a total of $33 to and fro~ i called the medical document office for 3 consecutive days and no one answered~ so i went down after being tired of calling~ ta da~ wasted trip~ the receptionist told me that i needed to register first and the document would be ready in 1months time~ okay~ and i need to pay $80.25sgd upfront~ wtf u hire bodyguards to protect my medical documents? i didnt have enough $ with me~ so i left~ felt like i was shopping~ i told the receptionist " okay i come back later " ~ fml. i was also very unhappy with the receptionist~ she looked at me with big eyes and talk with this 'overconfident' tone~ its like trying to intimidate me~ i seriously hate it~ i thought customer service is suppose to give u a friendly feel ?

qualities of man

i have always wanted to be a real 'man'~ being a man is tough~ i have some simple qualities to be a real man in mind like

-nvr lose ur cool

-nvr show ur emotions

-respect

-security

-nvr say ' i dunno '

and many more~ its not as easy as being compassionate or humorous or courageous~ honestly its tough~

talk about man~ who is the first the come to your mind?

andy lau

of cuz its him~ mr nice guy for 30 years~ working like a superman~ ppl all around the world used him as their role model~ he looks like hes not going to get angry even if u wake him at 3am in the middle of the night~

notable quotes:

You know, if I tell the press that I like long blonde hair, the next day there will be girls with long hair wigs outside waiting for me.

I want to have a form that fits the times¸ so I just keep on changing¸ and that makes people feel I'm a hardworking guy trying to do my best

mike tyson

he was the baddest man on earth at some point of time~ i just watched his interview with Oprah~ touching~ he had a bad childhood,

"He wanted to be boxer since he was a child because when he was a child he used to raise pigeons and one day a boy came to him holding a pigeon and ripped it off and threw the pigeon on his face!!!! Mike Tyson got so angry that he hit the boy badly and threatened him not to hold one of his pigeons again. From that time onwards no body bullied him again, and when he found out that because of fighting children stopped bullying him, he wanted to grow up to be a boxer."

notable quotes:

I was hoping he would get up so I could hit him again and keep him down.

I'll go back and take what the people owe me.

i just realized that both of them are considered the one of the best (if not the best) in their industry~ we are looking at successful man here~ its like~ u got to be the best, theres no room for average ppl~ i too wanted to be somebody, have to keep improving just to keep up with the society~ one is playing face while another is playing heel~ is there a right or wrong way to be what u want to be? see both got their goals and have their names in the history books~ your children and grandchildren are going to talk about them~ life is tough~ being a man is as tough as being superman~

growth

was thinking how much i have gained from life in these past few years~ we all kept learning from our past experiences and so we will have an easier time the next time we face similar problems~ there are also many obstacles out there~ its like anyone or anything can be ur obstacle towards something u really want to achieve~ and its always complicated when dealing with people~ everybody faces obstacles~ there are a few times where i really feel like getting rid of those obstacles using 'mike tyson' style~ it gets very irritating because u cant control whats going to obstruct u~ it sure does make life becomes more interesting~ fuck all obstacles~ i want to stomp their testicles~ be it a chair blocking ur path or a someone u know~

wants

i want R1, i want killer bod, i want to be learn chinese calligraphy,i want andy lau's jawline, i want to earn big $, i want a water bed blah blah blah~ we just cant get enough of what we want right? i can like list a 100 things at 1 go~ "if u want everything, u will end up with nothing" but we cant be just contented with what we have right? what exactly does life wants us to do then? its like pulling and pushing us at the same time~ i m moving on the working life soon~ its gonna be even crazier~ my fren doing sales got a rolex, he said his fellow colleagues are even crazier~ its all about keeping up in this society~ recently, a game i play went through an update and a ' item trading system' was introduced~ love it~ allows me to trade for items i really wanted but have absolutely no luck in getting them~ if only life is like some trading card game that we used to play while we were little, there would be so much lesser white hairs on our heads.

appreciation

just suddenly wanted to thank blogger for allowing me to write all my thoughts down and at the same time allowing my frens to read~ hahaha random right?! told u the title is 'random thoughts'

death

was talking to a fren earlier today about whether we are going to donate our organs when we pass on~ i was thinking again about it just now while looking out of my window~ i suddenly had goosebumps~ i think i am scared, scared of death~ because i cant die right now without so many things unaccomplished so many kindness debts unpaid~

"it is good that u are not afraid, fear is a heavy burden~ the quest for freedom is also a heavy burden"

born again

if u were to be given a chance to be born again what will u be? okay i will study harder blah blah~ very boring~ i just super randomly feel like putting those yakuza tattoos all over my body~ its gonna make me look very cool~ and cool ppl attracts ppl~ maybe i want to learn a muscial instrument~ or i want to learn boxing, wu shu swordplay~ and i want to be very good at those~ its gonna benefit me in a thousand ways~ and it actually feels great to hear someone say that u are good at something

okay its 5am for me already~ i dunno if u have wasted some time reading my 'random thoughts' or my 'random thoughts' actually drew a smile on ur cute/pretty/handsome face~ enjoy ur day ahead !

BRB i go bathe~